“Slow down, take time, breathe in He said He’d reveal what’s to come”. As someone who is always on the go, slowing down and patience are probably two of the hardest things for me to do. But Take Courage reminds me that this is exactly what I need to do in order to be able to see and maybe begin to understand just how much God wants for me.
During my first year of college, I was in a relationship that I now understand wasn’t a good one for me to be in. It got to the point where it seemed like every day, some new problem or conflict would arise. I’m a stubborn person in that I hate giving up on people because I believe that I’m the one who can save them. I’m a rescuer. But no matter how many times I tried to rescue this person from one thing, something else would pop up in its place. It was affecting my ability to sleep properly, my happiness, my enthusiasm, and who I was as a person. I didn’t recognize myself anymore.
One of the things I struggled (and still struggle) with was finding the difference between a test and a sign from God. Was He testing me to see if I meant it when I said I cared about this person? Was He testing my resolve? Maybe the problems we were having were actually not so bad and if I “chickened out” then I obviously wasn’t trying hard enough. Or was it a sign that the situation I was in was one He was trying to remove me from and I was just being too stubborn to see it?
For months, I went back and forth. Eventually I ended the relationship but even then, a small part of me felt like I made the wrong choice. Not long after, I started to feel my life come together in ways that it hadn’t before. I saw new opportunities and blessings come my way that I would not have been able to receive had I not listened to what He was trying to tell me. I know for myself, and maybe this is true for others too, but sometimes I get so stuck in what I want or what think I want. I want to get a certain part in a show or I want things with a certain person to work out. One of the things that I’ve really been trying to come to terms with is that God’s plan for me is often times SO much bigger than what I had planned for myself. “The thoughts in His mind always higher than mine, He’ll reveal what’s to come”. He proves time and time again that the little things I think are so important right now pale in comparison to the things He has in store.
Something my mom tells me all the time is that the things that are for me are for me, and nothing will get in the way of that. “Do not forget His great faithfulness, He’ll finish all He’s begun”. How can God lead me to the things that He has planned for me if I’m too busy focusing my energy on things that are trivial in the bigger picture? When I sing or listen to Take Courage, I’m reminded that God knows me better than I know myself and He has something so much more worthwhile coming my way if only I will trust in Him.